Sunday, April 27, 2008

I've been so busy at my new job (helping make digital maps for an Internet giant) that I haven't written anything in a very long time- the last thing I want to do after a day of computer labor is more computer labor.

Work: I (along with eleven coworkers) was appointed a team lead, responsible for the welfare and productivity of 5 to 10 digital mappers. Sadly, most of my team members have been fired for incompetence, sloth and/or attendance issues. I feel I failed them somehow- maybe if I'd tried harder they would have succeeded. This is very depressing, and I believe I will be fired for failing to lead successfully.

Leisure: I am growing potatoes and sweet potatoes, eggplant and yellow-fleshed icebox watermelon in my little garden. Yesterday my dog crapped on the eggplant. I don't think she meant any harm, and I doubt she was trying to tell me anything- she probably did it because she is a dog.

Love life: Well, I love life...

I wear a real shirt very day! Buttons, pocket, collar, all that. I'm surprised at myself, since I used to hate shirts and it is perfectly acceptable to wear t-shirts at my work, which almost everyone else does. I started wearing shirts as soon as I became a team lead- though I don't recall giving it any thought, maybe I hoped this would inspire professionalism in my team. That evidently didn't happen, but at least I can serve as way-point for giving directions: See that guy in the collared shirt? Go past him and then turn right. And another nice thing about a real shirt is that I can put my notebook in the pocket.

Gosh, I am really feeling low about all the people who have lost their jobs while following my orders. What am I doing wrong, or not doing at all? I wish I could conduct exit interviews to see what's going on, but because of the temp agency's policies I almost never know someone's going to be fired until (at the earliest) the moment it happens, and usually not until after the fact. This Saturday, I met a team member in town and he told me he had been let go after our shift on Friday. I expect I'll be officially informed of this fact Monday. Other teams do more work and lose fewer people, so maybe I can learn from them. I think I need to set some goals for myself and for the people in my team. There must be some way to get the quantity and quality of work we need.


Anonymous said...

Hey Drifty, Perhaps you are so productive in your own right they don't feel they need anybody else! Signed, A Fan

Unknown said...

Dear Fan,
Aw, thanks! I'm not productive, but I am dedicated and good-hearted.